I am so frustrated with myself. I have had this weight battle going on for it seems like 2 years now. I was doing so good working out and running but it still seemed like I was getting no where with losing weight. I am just so tired of being so hard on myself. I believe that my body should be perfect and we all know that no one is perfect. But try telling my brain that...no I am not crazy and don't have voices talking to me or anything! ha I just beat myself up about my weight. I don't think I am fat but I just wish I could learn to love myself for me. I feel like I have always been unhappy with my body even when I was super skinny. I just don't get it and don't really know what to do. I will just continue to pray about it and do my best to give it to God. The devil just seems to be working overtime on me lately. I need to fight him off and anybody that wants to help fight him with me come on! ha :) Well anyways enought rambling and negativity. Hopefully my next blog will be better...we shall see!
~Chunky Monkey :)
Welcome to my world...
My life is full of surprises! One minute I am up and the next I am down. My emotions are like a roller coaster these days, but I still wouldn't change my life for anything in the world. I love each and every day. I want to do something meaningful in my life and leave a impact on the people I meet and know. I want to make a difference. I struggle with everyday problems just like ALL of us do, I just feel that how we deal with problems define who we are. We have to push forward in life and don't let things hold us back. Smile it's so worth it!!! And laugh like no one is listening, you never know whose life you might touch in that very momemt. :)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Don't you hate when you have those days that you are just really down and nothing seems to cheer you up, well I have been like this for a month it seems like. I don't understand why I feel this way. I am a very blessed girl with a bright future ahead. This is always a battle I am going to fight I am afraid. But I am just going to keep moving forward and hold my head up no matter what. I know that brighter days are to come and I can make it through the darks ones with God by my side. :) There have been multiple things in my life that have happened recently that I don't understand and can't explain. I just have to understand that it's life and it's never going to be an easy road. So for know I am just gonna keep moving on and hope that this mood passes soon!