Welcome to my world...
My life is full of surprises! One minute I am up and the next I am down. My emotions are like a roller coaster these days, but I still wouldn't change my life for anything in the world. I love each and every day. I want to do something meaningful in my life and leave a impact on the people I meet and know. I want to make a difference. I struggle with everyday problems just like ALL of us do, I just feel that how we deal with problems define who we are. We have to push forward in life and don't let things hold us back. Smile it's so worth it!!! And laugh like no one is listening, you never know whose life you might touch in that very momemt. :)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
I have always had this feeling ever since I was a teenager or childhood actually. I have never felt good enough to be loved or in sports...just in general. I know somewhat of what it stems from but that's besides the point and it can't be changed now. So my big question is how do you move on from these feelings. I do my best to be encouraging and uplifting everyday, it doesn't always work but I give it a try everyday. It's always so easy for me to uplift others or lend a helping hand, in fact I love doing that!! I would rather sit and listen and give advice or help a friend then to tell myself one good qaulity I see in myself. I constanly feel like I am not good enough and struggle to find that self worth...why I don't know. I really wish it wasn't this hard, I see the confidence and radiant beauty in others and I always think to myself why can't I have that. Is this a normal woman thing or am I really just too hard on myself? I just really want to know are there others out there that feel the same way? Sometimes I think that if we all opened up a little bit more than it would lighten the load off of others. Alot of our problems are started cause we feel alone and that no one else struggles with what we are going through. So if there is anyone out there that feels the same way I would like to know and maybe we can come up with encouraging words to help on a daily basis. :) Just random thoughts and feelings that usually run through my mind on a daily basis but I never act on it, I just always push it aside and move on.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
I want so many things out of life....Love(which I have found), relationship with God(been working harder on that), Kids, Degree, Money(but honestly not to much), Dream house, Land, Become a Mommy, Friends(have lots of these), Happiness and Confidence. Most of these things are what we all want out of life and I am so blessed to say that I have most of these things!! My main thing I really want to work on is loving myself and having confidence in myself. I want my future kids to see me as a strong role model and not a weak insecure woman. I know I can't be perfect but sometimes I put that pressure on myself to be just that. I want to look in the mirror and love me for me and realize that beauty is not just on the outside. It's so hard for me to see beauty within myself and so easy for me to see it in other people. I want this cycle to end....I have set goals for myself this year and I intend to do them. I want to be a positive person and a lovable person. I want to always have a smile on my face even if I am hurting or sad inside. You never know when that smile might change someone else's life. So all the things I want in life are so simple but yet are things that people take for granted everyday including myself. Take some time to tell yourself something good that you like about yourself because we are all worth loving and we are each individualy perfect! :)