Being a woman is exhausting!!

Ok so I am so tired of trying to battle this weight!! I don't eat terrible and I work out but I still can't seem to lose the weight that I want too. And then my husband drops over 40lbs!! I am happy for him don't get me wrong but it's so much easier for men to lose weight or so it seems to me. I am so mentally exhausted, count this, weigh this, don't eat that, Ok I can have that but will have to run an extra mile..on and on. I just want to be able to lose the weight and feel better about myself for once!! I know I am having a pity party for myself, but today I am just tired of being chunky! My husband tells me Brittany you are always beautiful to me and you look great! But in the back of my mind these are my thoughts...he has to say that, he wouldn't hurt my feelings so he says these things to make me feel better and etc. Why can't I just love me for me and stop with this constant pressure that I put on myself??? Who knows why, I can't figure it out. I know right now the enemy is working overtime on my mind and I refuse to let him win!! So I need to start praying hard before I go insane!! I think I am done venting now....who knows I may be back for more later!!